moment of clarity

warning: this contains truth and fiction. the lines are meant to be extremely blurred.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

jaded as you are

now there's time for this. there's time for thinking before acting, for thinking about what's been done and what cannot be undone. now there's time for things that are as important...though taken for granted. there's time for loving yourself a little more.

this is the perfect time to muse and hark back. because this is the best example of the in-between phase. things have just ended and beautiful beginnings are waiting though held at bay. and that's not necessarily a bad thing...because beautiful beginnings never fail to disappoint. i guess this is the time to realize why. the time to see that you are equally responsible for how life treats you. you are not supposed to just take the blows. you are supposed to take control...to know and say when you're done giving.

when you've come to that, you will know that you don't always get what you give. that sometimes you have to ask for more, because you deserve just that. when you get used to 'just enough' you tend to miss out on what the rest of the world has to offer. and so, that ends here.

just enough is no longer okay. fulfillment will not be found in giving,not anymore. from here on life will also be about self-gratification. it will be about allowing yourself to get your rightful share of what this amazing world has to offer. and about rejecting half-sincere offers from those who do not really know what it means to share...

sometimes you just have to bask in the glory of righteous selfishness.