looking, forward

for sanity, fun and fulfillment, i wish i could:

* wall climb, bike, and throw threes
* go to the beach
* watch the Kami nAPO muna concert
* have the rain bathe me
* read leisurely the little prince and cathcher in the rye
* go to the mall and walk aimlessly
* jog or walk around the academic oval
* go to my favorite church, the one that looks like a spaceship
* have him sing chasing cars to me
* do some GMA-bashing in written, objective form
* learn more about Lebanon
* start playing percussions
* get serious about the sport of swimming
* do yesterday what i am doing now
* tell myself three months ago it's gonna be alright after all
* rest well, breathe easy, and sleep deep
* have my vinyl records guy take my breath away

for now i'd have to settle with, and do the following instead:

* walk in the garden and love the doggies
* sing uninvited in the shower
* watch mtv and dance to justin's sexy back
* take baths leisurely
* read maritime law like it would salvage me from drowning
* let my mind wander to Oktoberbest
* pray in this square refuge of mine
* learn chasing cars lyric and music by heart
* put on my apathetic hat when i feel like being seditious
* blog like it would heal the world
* promise myself i would not get to 30 without playing the drums
* do now what's left of yesterday's ought-to-haves
* tell myself that three months from now things might not be okay, again
* rest assured that shit happens but i happen to handle shit well
* know that my vinyl records guy would find me breathtaking