i gotta have

around this time of the day i stop and drop whatever im reading because my brain stops functioning...because i fail to find relevance and purpose halfway through the reviewer i'm cramming into my brain. because my mind flies off into things more fulfilling and breathtaking. translation: i need to get inspired. and so, i write...or read anything that serves as testimony to the wonder that is life.

though my life has not necessarily been amazing,i can't stop thinking about how everything else is. screened and censored as my thoughts are, they circle on why each new day is a testament to the power of new beginnings. i feel detached from the rest of the world, from myself, when i don't get to express how my waking moments teach me how faith could change everything and why change can be good. nerdyak as it may sound, faith is such a powerful thing and love and all the crap that come with it are actually for real.

these days a lot of people are running on nothing but faith and whatever else it is that keeps the world from destroying itself. because of it, hanging on which might otherwise seem stupid becomes a brave thing to do. because of it, the rather thin line between courage and foolishness becomes a defined boundary between success and failure.

but of course, faith is just a key that leads to a bunch of keys (as the author of my reviewer quotes from Roger Williams). faith brings with it courage and appreciation. courage to battle because "this too shall pass", and appreciation because when all this is over the more important imprints come from the journey. when you believe in tomorrow you won't tend to live like today's all you've got. and so, you get to slow down and cherish not only the ephemeral. (haha, very "The Little Prince").

becoming aware of the great need to overcome and the greater need for changing oneself in order to overcome has been the best awakening so far. but an awakened mind entails a heart strengthened and a soul renewed. and, all that can thrive on that piercing though puny hint of believing. believing that one glorious day i will be able to fulfill my purpose. and that one fine day, some other believer will allow me to let him take my breath away.